So it’s been a while since I posted. It was so painful and I’ve struggled. I opened up to my family about the issues I was facing, this did some good, my wife’s family on the other hand are bitter and twisted people. They thought it was a joke, mocked that everyone feels suicidal and that I should just “cope with it”. This started to cause me to consider if I was worth it. If I was just being oversensitive! A massive setback and a spiral started.
I was on the verge of suicide in February and only snapped out after sitting down and assessing everything. Surprisingly I found Afterlife by Ricky Gervais so, weirdly, mind soothing. I know it’s weird but his life style was like mine. Attempting to cope with loss by being a bit dark towards everyone. I know it won’t be seen by Ricky but something stopped me in that first season.
It’s strange that a series about using depression as a super power and coping mechanism for depression is quite soothing. I know people won’t flood my blog. Nor will people feel impacted by this. If you have depression or even just feel down just remember, your loved by someone even if they don’t say it. If you ever need someone to talk to…… Message me. I’m here you
Should have bought a dog! 