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So it’s been a while since I posted. It was so painful and I’ve struggled. I opened up to my family about the issues I was facing, this did some good, my wife’s family on the other hand are bitter and twisted people. They thought it was a joke, mocked that everyone feels suicidal andContinue reading “The last 3 months”

So this week I made a decisive decision. I stepped down from a management role within my workplace. Its extremely stressful and it became an obsession to me. I spent more time working than I did at home and this caused issues for me. Its now clear that work was causing my anxiety. Weirdly, IContinue reading “Work”

So I decided my best option is to open up. I spoke to family about the abuse I endured at a young age. My mum knew something was wrong around that time but presumed it was bullying. My sister is a bit of a twat so doesn’t believe it (she worships my father even thoughContinue reading “Going forward”

Feel like I’ve been holding back. Like I need to let this out. Let’s start at the beginning. My father (the cunt) wasn’t the best, he actively sought to put you down and make you feel tiny. At 3 years old my mum left him due to his repeated cheating and the fact he triedContinue reading “History”

Here I am, in bed alone. I work nights normally so being in bed alone is normal. Issue is when I’m at home my better half sleeps in our sons room. This isn’t a 1 off, it’s every week. It feels weird to be constantly in bed alone. You want to cuddle up and feelContinue reading “Loneliness”

I’m 5 hours into my first shift and surprisingly it’s going well. I’m not panicking or feeling swamped. Although I’ve locked myself into my office and kept myself away from interaction it’s going well! It’s not easy trying to talk to people at work and it’s not easy admitting there is an issue. I’m notContinue reading “The daily grind”

So, I’ve tried my best to do a normal routine. It’s actually harder than you think. I used to enjoy cooking and even cleaning up… Now I can’t even push myself passed making soup. Depression isn’t what I expected. I still laugh and smile, I still joke and act normal but I can’t shift thisContinue reading “The norm”

Kid have no filter! Seriously, they are ridiculous. I feel self conscious and first thing my son says (after I’ve weighed myself to find I’ve lost 2 pounds) is “wow your belly is massive” cheers kid! I was on a high and now a low. Not his fault mind just being honest and it’s actuallyContinue reading “Why do we have kids?”

Hello, My name is Luciano. Call me Luc…. Or whatever. Anyway I was diagnosed with depression on Monday (2 days ago). It wasn’t a surprise. I spend most my days stressed and anxious. This is just another one to follow my list of previous issues. So let’s get started properly. My issues started at theContinue reading “DAY 1”

I’m 30, Dad, husband, general dogsbody. Here to blow of some steam. I’ll be updating daily or maybe every couple of days. This is more to vent than anything. Use this to discuss…. To find joy! To find comfort. I’m also on twitter under @lufcldp1989. If you need a chat give me a shout….. BecauseContinue reading “Should have bought a dog!!”