The daily grind

I’m 5 hours into my first shift and surprisingly it’s going well. I’m not panicking or feeling swamped.

Although I’ve locked myself into my office and kept myself away from interaction it’s going well! It’s not easy trying to talk to people at work and it’s not easy admitting there is an issue. I’m not saying it’s right to ignore it, I’m just not comfortable enough to tell people yet.

I’ve always been enclosed and that’s my mindset, no way of shifting, no way of changing. I’ve been instilled with a “home issues stay at home” mentality at work…. Or that’s what work have done. That’s probably not healthy but this shit takes time.

On a positive I’m drinking loads more water and I actually had a positive thought “maybe moving will help me”. Infact its no maybe… I know it will. Just need to get myself in a steady financial position to get there.

Sounds mental that doing this is helping but it actually is. Seeing the written word of my issues is helping.

Tomorrow will be more gruesome….. Its time to put those demons in my mind into this blog….

Keep an eye out 👀