So, I’ve tried my best to do a normal routine. It’s actually harder than you think. I used to enjoy cooking and even cleaning up… Now I can’t even push myself passed making soup.
Depression isn’t what I expected. I still laugh and smile, I still joke and act normal but I can’t shift this sense of emptiness or numbness.
It’s a strange situation to be in. Returning to work today and hopefully this will keep my mind busy. Ive kicked alcohol and even started looking at my diet….. Then I went an ordered a Chinese and had a very, very weak shandy.
In other news my sister in law came down followed by a massive storm that generally follows my in laws. They help about as much as a chocolate fire guard in a forest fire… They only bother for themselves and it frustrates me to see my wife being abused by them. Thank god I married my wife and didn’t care about her family.
Stress has eased alot but it’s getting back into the Norm as they say.
Hopefully tomorrow I can feel a bit less numb.
Should have bought a dog! 