Going forward

So I decided my best option is to open up.

I spoke to family about the abuse I endured at a young age. My mum knew something was wrong around that time but presumed it was bullying.

My sister is a bit of a twat so doesn’t believe it (she worships my father even though they aren’t blood related). She said I was craving attention and that it was cry out for help. Suggested I go get tablets to make me see reality. This woman has an alcoholic husband who threatens my nephews (he’s not their dad).

My step dad is old school but he looked broken by it. He didn’t say it but he just looked as if it hit him hard. I’m like his own so he hurts when I’m hurt. He said come for a drink with me and we will talk. He won’t talk but he will make me laugh and help me.

My brother isn’t about so never mind lol. He’s off working hard and I know he’s a workaholic so it’s irrelevant.

My wife knew and she said it was the thing to do to get my mind clear.

My father denies it all. Although its been mentioned that my father slept with my ex a while ago. Nice to find out but oh well. He’s useless. Too bothered about moving on. He’s wrapped up getting to take my daughter out while I don’t get to see her.

I’m broken. Hurting. Contemplating everything.

Today is a rough day.